Feelings Beyond Decription

I don't know why but i just feel so heartfelt today. I just looked up my love's Facebook, oh yes I'm stalking him. Hehe. Apparently, I find myself not minding about his past life, being good or bad, or his love life. I know he had many girlfriends before but I never mind any of them, they were still once loved by him, i respect that. :) But nevertheless, I'm very curious about who the girl 'J' is because he had never mentioned before. I think it's just interesting and it will be better to know everything about him, regardless in the past or now. I just want to be closer to him and I know through all the incidents, I will be able to understand his past and try my best to fill him and make his life much more nourishing. Everybody has their past that they got to overcome. Never I thought he will be mine. Everything is very unexpected honestly. From an eyecandy, to a crush, to being my partner, and now in the process of being the one who will accompany for the rest of my life. It's amazing how God has brought us together. No words can describe how I feel now. It's more than happiness. More than grateful. More than appreciating. More than touched.

It's feelings beyond description...

It's been more than 3 years both of us feel for each other. 3 years we've battled and fight our way through the ups and downs. Nobody can imagine how terrible our fights are. And nobody can exactly understand how we might have felt. Many atimes, we wanted to give up but maybe it's God's will that we are bound to be back together. Really. I have asked God many times to remove him if he won't be the one because we are too hurt to go on. But it's funny we never left each other and now i wonder if this is the answer to my prayer for 3 years. He may not be the ideal guy every girl wants: tall, big, rich, smart, big or etc. (Not implying that he don't have any one mentioned), but he's everything I need and everything much more than I can ask for. I know I love him when I always shy away and my heart skips that little beat when our eyes meet. Everytime I see him I see myself smiling and even when we quarrel, I see myself caring and feeling pain when I looked at him. It felt like I just fainted and died due to his charm, hehe. * inserts emoticon with heart shapes in the eyes * Love is wonderful. It's amazing what love can do to us. I don't know why I feel so much when I met him and when we are in love. He changed many parts of me. There are so many memories during this whole lifetime we are together. Till now, there may be still burdens and troubles both of us cant move on and feel hurt about (or maybe it's me), but I know I will overcome them with the prayers and God's blessed strength for me. Because if we are meant to be under God's will, it will be overcomed. It's just the matter of time. 'I love you' is not enough to express my love for him. Our love story and our memories are not opened to public (Insta, FB etc) but the ones around us know that we are together. As I'm blogging about this, there's like tears in my eyes cause I'm too touched thinking about him. I had never loved so hard and so deep before. And I'm glad I found him after failing one love story. Although I still have alot to learn about love and I'm still young, I believe we know we are in love and we are loving now.

I love you, Joshua Liao Jun Sheng. :* <3 i="">