It's been more than a year since I updated my blog. I guess this is the only place where I can reveal my feelings. Many things happened throughout this year. It's hard. Really hard for me. And it just seems like I have no one to turn to. Everytime whether good or bad happens, I would like to turn to you. But you always turn me down.
And now I wonder. What's on your mind. It's long since we had a long talk. There are many promises within us, incomplete. Why are you doing this to me. You know we had it all. You know what I did to hold this tight. Or do you even know? And with just one thought of yours, you end it all. Why didnt you tell me earlier. I'm like a fool all these while hoping to get us back. It's time you looked through me. Because of you, I've lost many in my life. And now that you're the only one left, you abandoned me in this empty field. Why, how, what am I supposed to do. I need go get back up alone without you and survive in this cruel world. You know the broken pieces in me. But you never knew how weak I was. Because I always have this smile readily to tell the world that no, I'm not weak I can handle this. I don't know what else to feel. It's a misery.
